I look back and wonder how the hell I did it! I must have been high on insomnia because I use to run around with my head chopped off rushing here, there and everywhere. I was a salaried retail manager working insanely long hours, often times 6 days a week. Somehow I got it all done. Or at least that's my perception now. Sometimes I feel like I may have even done it better.
However, as I look around my living room right now, I feel the mommy guilt building up. Like I said it's a delicate balance that includes all the fringe jobs. The ball I drop quite often is housework. Honestly, I hate it. Please, please tell me you do too. It would really make me feel better. I feel guilty when I see other people's houses that look totally well put together and organized. Tell me it's all a facade and all their clutter is piled up in the closets and tucked under the bed. I want that clean, organized, uncluttered look but it's hard to find and even harder to maintain.
|Things just find their way here when my back is turned. I clear it off and within a few |
If you're anything like me your house is the cleanest when compay is coming. It stresses me the hell out though...like I'm on a mission aginst the clock and the punishment will be instant judgement on my housekeeping skills I'm lucky enough that I believe most of my friends are not like this, but still the anxiety is there.
I have to say though that I feel better after I run crazy through the house before guests arrive. I feel a sense of peace. Seriously, once I've made the time to de-clutter and clean up I feel so much better. Like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. My house isn't really "dirty" it's just cluttered. Ok, I will confess I hate to dust so that's rarely done unless company's coming or one of the kids offer to do it. I don't mind sweeping, mopping or vacuuming but they're all hard with my neck/shoulder issue. It's the back and forth motion that kills me, plus the vacuum is heavy to lug around. I sweep every day (3 or 4 times) but I only mop or vacuum once every week or two depending on what condition the floors are in. Goalieboy said he would start helping with the vacuuming but so far that hasn't actually happened. I'm going to get on him about that tomorrow. Wish me luck.
|Our mail area...most of it is in the blue totes. This spot drives me nuts because I don't know how to get rid of it.|
The clutter is killing me. It's not horrible, horrible but it's an eye sore. We have a very old house (1890's) and it's not big (once was but converted to a 2 family decades ago). There are no closets outside the ones in the bedrooms. It kills me! I have a shoe rack by the door for mine and hubby's shoes. The kids each have an over the door shoe holder. I have a toy chest in the entryway where I put miscellaneous things in and my son's smelly hockey bag goes on top of it. I can't put it in the basement or my cats will pee on it. Ewww...I know it's disgusting. I also have a small armourer I put things in, especially when I de-clutter. It's like my junk drawer but it's a (mostly organized) cabinet. The worse area for us is the divider wall (between our living room and "entryway"). That's where everything ends up. It's a collect all space...mail, paperwork, school work and odds and ends the kids leave lying around. It kills me.
|The toy chest with Goalieboy's smelly equipment on top. Where can I hide this thing?!|
Seriously, I would kill for a couple closets...one in the entryway and another in the upstairs hallway. It's pitiful. Is anyone else singing my toon right now? Do you feel my pain? I feel guilty when I pass up tidying up everyday to spend time with the kids. I feel guilty when I go de-clutter crazy and it gets in the way of doing things with the kids. I'll feel a little less guilty in September because I'll try to keep up on it when they're in school. But seriously, I hate choosing cleaning over the kids.
It's delicate balance but I'm getting better at ignoring the guilt and living for the moment. The clutter, dishes, laundry and dirty floors will ALWAYS be there no matter what I do but my kids will only be young once. It's becoming my mantra and when I chat it I always feel better.
***Please tell me I"m not alone***