Do you ever feel like you're in a race you have no hope in winning or even completing? Do you feel like you're constantly going in circles with a few hills and lots of gullies? Do you feel hope only to have it repeatedly dashed? Do you feel like you're on track only to get knocked off?
This seems to be the routine of my life during the last few years. I don't know which way is up. I feel like I'm constantly fighting the current tugging me backwards and under.
I struggle to pull ahead. I find myself in a good place. I'm happy. Only to get side swiped and pulled down.
I want to please everyone and make them happy but I can't. I can't seem to even hold on to my own happiness.
I feel critical of others and I don't know why.
I just want to be complete. I want to be happy. I want to feel at peace with myself and others.
Is it me? Is there something wrong with me? Is it them? Is it us?
I just don't know anymore. I'm lost and there's no road map. I need a helping hand but I don't know where to turn.
My manta to live by is: Stay strong. Focus on the positives. And, this too shall pass.
God doesn't give us more than we can handle. This I believe.