Sorry I haven't been around much the last few weeks. There have been changes happening in my life . I've struggled to find the time and energy to blog because I've been so tired mentally and physically. Thank you everyone for hanging around waiting for me to come back.
As many of you know I have been out of work for the past two years. Last week I finally found a part time job. It has been difficult getting back into the routine of being a working mom. I'm still trying to find the delicate balance between work and home. It's not easy but I'm getting there.
Whether you're a "working" mom or "stay at home mom" it's all the same as you work 24/7 7 days a week 365 days a year. It's never ending being responsible for your family and household.
For me personally it was easier being a stay at home mom. Maybe it's because that's where I prefer to be. And trust me when I say that wasn't easy by any means. It was just easier because I could rearrange scheduling to accommodating the last minute changes. I also was able to find more time to cook, bake and sneak in a few minutes of me time before the kids came home from school. As a working mom I have to have more of a set routine and stick to it. When I fall out of the schedule things start to unravel a bit.
Having both kids in school full time now definitely makes life easier. It was a lot harder 2 years ago when I was working full time with only 1 child in school. I don't know how I did it all. Looking back I feel like I must have been super woman. I'm tired all the time now, how did I do it then when I know I was even more exhausted?! I guess sheer will power.
Right now I'm just glad to have a job. I've been without one for 2 years now due to an on the job work injury. Last December the company that I had worked for (for 7 years) terminated my employment. It's been a very difficult job hunt. I have physical limitations due to my injury, plus I really needed a day job while the kids are in school. Combine those two and finding a compatible job is nearly impossible.
At this point the job is only part time but at least it accommodates the hours I need. I'm hoping and praying something full time opens up.
Its not my dream job and it doesn't pay much but I'm working and I have a foot in the door. That's all I can ask in this economy.
Unfortunately, I think I'm doing more than I should be physically, even though it doesn't sound like much. I'm standing on my feet for 4 hours with little walking. I'm also reaching above my head and doing repetitive motions. I'm not supposed to be doing any of that. I'm telling myself it's alright because the reaching isn't constant and the motions are tolerable. At this point I don't have much of a choice. Worker's compensation requires me to look for full time work. At least with part time work I'm showing that I'm trying. Also, the little bit of unemployment I had is down to almost nothing. So, I will continue looking and forge forward. It's the best thing I can do for my family.
I'm teaching my children that it is good to work hard no matter what the job or the pay. The best thing is that I like the job and the people. That's a bonus in my eyes. I do find myself enjoying being out of the house and doing something productive.
Wish me luck on this new journey in my life!