Sorry I haven't been around much the last few weeks. There have been changes happening in my life . I've struggled to find the time and energy to blog because I've been so tired mentally and physically. Thank you everyone for hanging around waiting for me to come back.
As many of you know I have been out of work for the past two years. Last week I finally found a part time job. It has been difficult getting back into the routine of being a working mom. I'm still trying to find the delicate balance between work and home. It's not easy but I'm getting there.
Whether you're a "working" mom or "stay at home mom" it's all the same as you work 24/7 7 days a week 365 days a year. It's never ending being responsible for your family and household.
For me personally it was easier being a stay at home mom. Maybe it's because that's where I prefer to be. And trust me when I say that wasn't easy by any means. It was just easier because I could rearrange scheduling to accommodating the last minute changes. I also was able to find more time to cook, bake and sneak in a few minutes of me time before the kids came home from school. As a working mom I have to have more of a set routine and stick to it. When I fall out of the schedule things start to unravel a bit.
Having both kids in school full time now definitely makes life easier. It was a lot harder 2 years ago when I was working full time with only 1 child in school. I don't know how I did it all. Looking back I feel like I must have been super woman. I'm tired all the time now, how did I do it then when I know I was even more exhausted?! I guess sheer will power.
Right now I'm just glad to have a job. I've been without one for 2 years now due to an on the job work injury. Last December the company that I had worked for (for 7 years) terminated my employment. It's been a very difficult job hunt. I have physical limitations due to my injury, plus I really needed a day job while the kids are in school. Combine those two and finding a compatible job is nearly impossible.
At this point the job is only part time but at least it accommodates the hours I need. I'm hoping and praying something full time opens up.
Its not my dream job and it doesn't pay much but I'm working and I have a foot in the door. That's all I can ask in this economy.
Unfortunately, I think I'm doing more than I should be physically, even though it doesn't sound like much. I'm standing on my feet for 4 hours with little walking. I'm also reaching above my head and doing repetitive motions. I'm not supposed to be doing any of that. I'm telling myself it's alright because the reaching isn't constant and the motions are tolerable. At this point I don't have much of a choice. Worker's compensation requires me to look for full time work. At least with part time work I'm showing that I'm trying. Also, the little bit of unemployment I had is down to almost nothing. So, I will continue looking and forge forward. It's the best thing I can do for my family.
I'm teaching my children that it is good to work hard no matter what the job or the pay. The best thing is that I like the job and the people. That's a bonus in my eyes. I do find myself enjoying being out of the house and doing something productive.
Wish me luck on this new journey in my life!
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Wednesday, January 05, 2011
A little about Me...the Basics
I started this blog about 9 months ago and haven't kept up with it like I should. I love to write and once upon a time wanted to be an author or journalist. A demanding job and family will put you on a different course. No complaints there. But, I did (and do) want to get back to writing for enjoyment. I want to share my days as a wife, mother, daughter, etc. Writing and sharing helps me get my thoughts in order and work things out. Hopefully you will laugh, cry and commiserate with me. I don't live a perfect life. I am not a perfect mom, wife or daughter. I can be selfish, argumentative, stubborn and mean. I can be blunt and don't always sugar coat things. But, I'm also happy, supportive, funloving, and proud of who I am. Us moms, no matter how different we are, need to stick together. There's no actually manual to being a mother, wife or daughter....it's on the job training without combat pay. So dive in. There's no time like the present!
A little about the life I juggle:
1. I'm 36 years old
2. Married 8 yrs/together 10 yrs
3. I have a wonderful 16 yr old stepdaughter who joined my life when she was 6. I refer to her as SD or SD16. She stays with us Saturday to Sunday every other week. Sometimes we see her more and I get giddy inside when that happens. I feel priviledged that she still comes and devasted when she can't make it. She loves her brother and sister and is an awesome big sister. I'm proud to call her daughter! She loves to dance, gossip, and text (ALL day long!!).
4. My son is 8. He's DS or DS8. He's in 3rd grade and is constantly getting in trouble for talking and not staying focused. He is the bain of my existance some days and I love him to pieces! He also has minor hearing issues that we still haven't fully resolved. He gets speech and reading help at school and an ELA tutor outside school once a week. He's been skating since he was 5. Playing hockey since he was 5 1/2 and goalie for 2 years. He's a natural, many people tell them this. I think he feels pressue from the expectations at times so I remind him to just have fun! He loves HOCKEY, goalies and the NJ Devils.
5. My daughter is 6. I call her DD or DD6. She is in 1st grade and a cute handful. She has many friends and the boys are wrapped around her tiny finger. She is a fast learner and I always worry she is going to surpass DS8 and it will wreck his self confidence. She's a firecracker and will speak her mind. I don't think I'll have to worry about her being bullied. She has been skating since she was 5. After a year and a half she is at Basic Level 6. She will be in her first skating competition next month. She loves school, homework, Webkins and Littlest Pet Shops.
6. I have been out of work since Oct 2009. I reinjured (original injury March 2006) myself at my job and was told to take leave until my doctor cleared me to go back to work. It's been an uphill battle since then. I have pains in my neck and shoulder plus a previous back injury to boot (also on the job). I received a notice just the other day by comp that their doctor says I am fine and should go back to work with no restrictions. 2 problems...my company released me in November and my doctors don't feel I'm ready to go back to full duty until I complete another series of PT that comp won't authorize and a work conditioning program. So, I live in fear of what is going to happen to my income. I've been trying to find a job since some work restrictions were lifted back in Jan 2010 and still have yet to find anything. It's so disheartening and scary. I live with constant fear that everything is going to tumble down around us.
***So this is a little about me and who I am. Follow my blog to get a better insight and feel free to offer support, advice and words of encouragement.
A little about the life I juggle:
1. I'm 36 years old
2. Married 8 yrs/together 10 yrs
3. I have a wonderful 16 yr old stepdaughter who joined my life when she was 6. I refer to her as SD or SD16. She stays with us Saturday to Sunday every other week. Sometimes we see her more and I get giddy inside when that happens. I feel priviledged that she still comes and devasted when she can't make it. She loves her brother and sister and is an awesome big sister. I'm proud to call her daughter! She loves to dance, gossip, and text (ALL day long!!).
4. My son is 8. He's DS or DS8. He's in 3rd grade and is constantly getting in trouble for talking and not staying focused. He is the bain of my existance some days and I love him to pieces! He also has minor hearing issues that we still haven't fully resolved. He gets speech and reading help at school and an ELA tutor outside school once a week. He's been skating since he was 5. Playing hockey since he was 5 1/2 and goalie for 2 years. He's a natural, many people tell them this. I think he feels pressue from the expectations at times so I remind him to just have fun! He loves HOCKEY, goalies and the NJ Devils.
5. My daughter is 6. I call her DD or DD6. She is in 1st grade and a cute handful. She has many friends and the boys are wrapped around her tiny finger. She is a fast learner and I always worry she is going to surpass DS8 and it will wreck his self confidence. She's a firecracker and will speak her mind. I don't think I'll have to worry about her being bullied. She has been skating since she was 5. After a year and a half she is at Basic Level 6. She will be in her first skating competition next month. She loves school, homework, Webkins and Littlest Pet Shops.
6. I have been out of work since Oct 2009. I reinjured (original injury March 2006) myself at my job and was told to take leave until my doctor cleared me to go back to work. It's been an uphill battle since then. I have pains in my neck and shoulder plus a previous back injury to boot (also on the job). I received a notice just the other day by comp that their doctor says I am fine and should go back to work with no restrictions. 2 problems...my company released me in November and my doctors don't feel I'm ready to go back to full duty until I complete another series of PT that comp won't authorize and a work conditioning program. So, I live in fear of what is going to happen to my income. I've been trying to find a job since some work restrictions were lifted back in Jan 2010 and still have yet to find anything. It's so disheartening and scary. I live with constant fear that everything is going to tumble down around us.
***So this is a little about me and who I am. Follow my blog to get a better insight and feel free to offer support, advice and words of encouragement.
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